Twisted Nerve

....I feel more angry now than I think I did two days ago...You learn something new everyday...of course...What else is there gonna be? I think I'm so angry that if my blood could actually boil..it would be..I smelled that stupid cologne in school today, I thought I was going to smack my face into the damn desk. I feel bad though...Mr.Stoner noticed I was sad and said hi to me...and I gave him this like "UBER DEATH GLARE" and was like "WHAT DO YOU WANT?!"....yeah not cool...sorry =/ I think maybe I should go for a walk..I mean I've been so proud of myself..I havent hurt myself in a while..when usually I would have by now...I actually feel empowered right now for being able to control myself. I've been able to distract myself, taking walks actually kind of helps. I haven' really been eating though....which is actually pretty bad considering if I lose anymore weight my mom's gonna freak shit on me...For the 210th time I do not have an eating disorder, I'm just never hungry. I get sporadically hungry...and then I'll eat...but whatever...hey I actually feel a bit calmed down....wait..nope it's back again...damn